It’s difficult to write a short paragraph about yourself when you have years of experiences, good and bad, that have shaped who you truly are as a person. Some of life’s lessons could be conveyed in enough words to fill a book. Some are short and sweet. I believe that those who endure the toughest of lessons can work though them and emerge with a new perspective, outlook and respect for oneself. At 28 years old, I put an end to my suffering. I’m still going through the motions each day but as I reflect every night I’m proud to see my true self shining through. For years I abused my body and mind with self-sabotage. Between a compulsive eating disorder, self-mutilation, negative thinking, insecurities, and allowing myself to stay in unhealthy relationships, I had lost many important parts of who I was. It’s taken me years now to collect those lost pieces and put myself back together.
Two weeks before finally getting a diagnosis for IC and soon after, Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, I knew I needed to make a drastic change. I have been unhealthy and sick for two years shy of a decade. How could I do that to myself? I always knew deep down that there were foods I should avoid or different lifestyle choices I should make. I let my ego talk over those thoughts and quiet them down. I let my ego rule my life and drag me down to the bottom. My mom always told me, “Once you are at the bottom, there isn’t anywhere to go but up.” And that’s exactly what I did. As I continue to rise, I want to share my journey in hopes that it can resonate with someone else. In struggle, we always feel like we are alone. In truth, we are not alone. With understanding, fearlessness, and love we can not only help ourselves but those around us as well.
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